We have originated from something much more vast, wonderful and incomprehensible than what humans in their conditioned ways can understand yet we are inseparable from what we have come from. We are the eyes that from what we have come from sees itself and the universe. We are that creative energy itself and it is meant to act through us as part of it. But in our social and individual development we come to believe in and identify with something much less than that. It is not that we have to change our beliefs to experience the wholeness that we were conceived out of. How it is that we come to believe or not is part of what limits us. It might be more that a deeper seeing is required.Seeing ourselves as a separate self leads to a very selective process of pursuing security and survival for that self. This leads us to the living of our lives in a futile way, because, the truth is that there is no such guarantee available. From that place we are limited in our realisation of a more comprehensive truth. It may end up to be more that life and death are of a different essence than we have come to understand through our limited self and its ways. The self,s fixation on life without death is a deeply fragmented understanding and as well the obsession with the extension of life at all cost is a destructive one. Our understanding of death itself may be quite confused. Yet how are we to know this in this way or the way that we will understand?
It may be that there is more wisdom in letting go and in a returning to a more direct experience and intuition of what we are, what we are a part of and not what it is that we are separate from. As long as we perceive ourselves to be separate from that which we are perceiving we will only realise pieces of the puzzle, no matter how sophisticated our philosophy, technology and science become.
It is not that we should deny these abilities and skills that have evolved in us for seeing in a more intricate way. We can come to utilize these gifts for perceiving and seeing in a more progressive way if we allow what is to flow through us. Only than will we be able to move in an authentic way towards being what we are and not what the human mind has created life and individuals to be, stuck and influenced by the limitation of perception of self. in that self it perceives of a universe of its own creation not as it is. – Gord
Humanized Once More | October 29, 2014
We must realize that modern civilization is thoroughly oriented towards dehumanizing humanity in every possible way; that is to say, we are fast turning into robots or statues with no human souls. Our task is to get humanized once more.
– D. T. Suzuki, “Humanized Once More”
I am meditating as much as always these days and maybe more. I would say that it is more that I am coming to a place of being with the truth of myself and with what is and of course how, I, in my truth, might fit into the way things are. It almost seems that if I am not in presence I am suffering. It is as if in becoming what the world requires of us we become habituated to the suffering and don’t notice it much. But when we begin to experience presence we become more aware of the suffering in ourselves and in turn in almost all others however habituated it might be. It is not an intellectual understanding but a knowing of a more direct experience-I find more and more in this way that if something is not consistent with being than there is an arising aversion to it; an uncomfortable energetic surge that arises from within. It requires a learning to be with it, to attend to it, something that is not taught or discussed in our social and/or individual conditioning. We seem to be more conditioned not to pay attention to this and this in turn results in a diversion from our being, and thus creates the possibility of becoming the creation of our thoughts and concepts, constantly looking to cope and address any discomfort with external interventions.
In presence I witness directly the insanity as it arises, for example the fumbling projection of what I have become as a conditioned self; my anger, defensiveness, and sense of being isolated and unlovable and much more that is of static perception. In my meditative way I come to be present to this truth and at times to see and embrace a deeper truth of it and from this place there is discovered a more authentic arising of compassion and connection for all others who have as well wandered away from a more authentic embracing of life.
I have discovered that my personality has formed, beginning in the early days of life, absent of a connection to the source of its essence. The truth is that we can never really be separated from that essence but through our social and psychological conditioning we develop a self-imposed ignorance of what about us is authentic. The forming personality comes to believe in delusions of what the self is.
That point that we remember and reconnect with our origins begins a more wonder filled life experience, realizing the unlimited potential of what we are. It is beyond anything that the encapsulated self-regarding personality can experience.
I don’t perceive this static form of our conditioned self to be a true reflection of what we are as individuals as I do not perceive a static culture to be an authentic representation. There is an aspect of culture that is a projection of the ways of the collective and the static and the openness that is of that collective.. There is a dynamic that is a part of the static that is resistant to a natural unfolding and evolving. Some cultures are caught in these more rigid ways than others.
For me there is benefit in distinguishing between these static aspects of culture and the more dynamic evolving aspects of it. It is from a more intuitive reflecting than a scientific debunking that these distinctions are made. From that place I hope to be open and be receptive and encouraging to individuals and through that to the collective and cultures that are their projection.
In silence I look to open beyond that which is static and defended in myself and in turn that which is such in others.
My wife, Iris became quite ill last Thursday morning. Unfortunately she has a chronic condition exasperated by the loss of a portion of her lymph nodes and is prone to infection at times. We quickly drove to a clinic in Dresden where she was admitted fir five days, and was administered intravenous anti biotic for that time. Thankfully she is progressing nicely at this point after a scary initial acute reaction.
I spent the time finding my way around Dresden with the car, not such an easy thing to do in such an old city. My wife uses the navigator but I am not so inclined. I have spent a good deal of my life traveling without one and am aware of the way one comes to know a new city or place in an intimate way for oneself, making mistakes and going in the wrong direction here and there. You never really get to that point of knowing intimately with the use of a navigator. The connections and points of linking are not developed. There always remains a dependency on the navigator.
Iris has been reading Herta Muller the Nobel award-winning novelist who wrote about totalitarian states and their effects on the people who live in them. And it has initiated another of many discussions we have had about the German conditioning and how easy it is for a thinking process, not grounded in a sense of presence, to in turn essentially insulate people from the essence of their being human. Here in Germany after the national socialist obsession ended in 1945 there was no public discourse in the east as there was in the west. I would even go so far as to say that it would be beneficial for continued discussion even in the west but there is at times some reluctance for this to occur in Germany. There is something in the German culture that prefers a navigator whether it is a charismatic leader or a system of thinking. In the end there is a consequence for living out of that need in that individuals might not be so inclined to look to a deeper knowing. That is that in following an unexamined conditioning, both individually and collectively, there becomes the potential for a reliance on a fragmented and superficial understanding of the way to live life, that in the end can lead to a sense of alienation from a more authentic connection to the self and to life. There may be very relevant reasons for this tendency in modern life and it is probably something of a sort that has occurred in most cultures, perhaps them all, but at the same time the German culture is unique in its ways and in what and how it has occurred. Sigfried Lenz wrote the German Lesson addressing this phenomenon in his way as have many other German writers such as Stefan Zweig, and Hans Fallada in his way of writing.
Germany a country of eighty million people has benefited greatly in a material world from the embracing of what is particularly considered German values, ways and ideals. As a nation goes it is seen to be at the top of the world in terms of industrial and technological development as well as in excellence and efficiency of machinery, products and material goods. They have cultivated and refined their country, work force and as well their impression and pursuit of how the individual self should be with a mechanical efficiency, like most no other country and culture has. But is there something that is lost in that mechanical way, refinement and cultivation; something of what is, that is unseen yet essential to our humanity. I suspect so?
Does it have to be so? I don’t think so. With an awareness grounded in presence something much more vast and fundamental is realised about how the fragments fit into the whole and how everything is interconnected and necessary to the other.
. I remember long ago coming across the theme that John Ralston Saul’s “Voltaire’s Bastards” was stressing, that Voltaire made, which was that through the skillful use of words humans can rationalize most anything.
Through the ongoing committment to the direct experience of presence there has arisen the realization that there is more that is the essence of life that can not be captured in rational explanation and especially not through the effort of words and that we can be led astray attempting to find our way through these means ending up in a place of grasping on to the most meaningless of things. The pursuit of that what we perceive and think to be rational and meaningful however logical and practical it may seem to be can be the cause of a separation from something more essential and experienced through other means however ineffable it may be. It has been said that humankind has created a dualism that leads us to betray our authentic self.
There is no system or way to navigate life authentically other than an awareness that arises out of presence. From this we are empowered to live a life where we learn about ourselves and the relationship to other and to life itself. All other ways are short cuts that separate us from that authentic process often with the promise of happiness, comfort and /or security. This ipromise is an empty one.