Iris and I just returned from a camping and kayaking trip to Algonquin Park for five days. There is something about nature that brings one back to a familiar and comforting sense of being. We talked about this and wondered why it was more common when we were younger. We agreed that we still experience it at times when we let go. Nature helps with this. It seems to provide moments for seeing a bigger perspective than our daily conventional lives can provide. But we agreed that we can have it in our daily lives. It has something to do with realizing a bigger truth and the mystery of life that we have come to forget in our pursuit of security and certainty. That seems to involve a remembering of a sort, not of an intellectual cerebral quality but more of an intuitive sense of what we are and where we came from ; not to be known as we have been taught to know. It is in that conventional knowing that we have forgotten. But nature hasn’t forgotten and in the end it seems to have the last say on things.
The purpose of meditation is to awaken in us the skylike nature of mind, and to introduce us to that which we really are, our unchanging pure awareness that underlies the whole of life and death.In the stillness and silence of meditation, we glimpse and return to that deep inner nature that we so long ago lost sight of amid the busyness and distraction of our modern ways.
I will take a break from writing a blog for a while. The blog seemed to serve me in some way, especially in coping with my time spent in Nepal and Germany over the past seven years, but it has come to a point that I will take time to contemplate its usefulness. I think that I have been fighting for some time to hang on to something: what that is I am not entirely sure except that it is something, that over the years, I have come to know myself to be and not necessarily the truth of what I am.
A friend said to me the other day that we all have perspectives. There is truth in that. I have come to see that in that need to define what we are and to hold tightly to a perspective that is relevant to that “self-definition” that we ignore much of what can not be defined that we are. It is from this place of disconnection from something most essential and at the same time ineffable that we most contribute to destructive ways. These ways are revealing themselves in terms of how we relate to ourselves, others, other beings and the planet itself. Our perspectives seem to be more “in the way ” than they have been a way to growth and progress that we have in the past believed them to be. This applies both to the individual and to the collective. We don’t want to change people. That not something that seems to work, anyway. I think that it is beyond changing people or hoping that people change. What is happening to the world and to the planet will change people whether they desire that or not. It seems to me that we can make those changes in an easier way if we can bring love to how we interact with others and to help them to cope with the impact of those changes. Change creates doubt.
Brene Brown writes, “If we are brave enough often enough, we will fall; this is the physics of vulnerability”. There seems to be something to be realized in that failing. Possibly it is the death of our intense attachment to identifying with a perspective that prevents us from an open awareness.
I will continue to post clippings and reading that I encounter in my daily search.
A close friend sent the card below to me the other day. I happened to be, at the time, reading about the stream of life; that everything that we experience is a part of us, although, ultimately we are consciously not aware of this interconnection. We often make an active effort to retain memories of another or direct our lives based on our past recollections. Not that it is wrong to do this, but in not being aware of our connection we have come to rely on our thinking and our memory to define what we are and memory of the past has come to play a substantial role in this.
My friend followed up with an email the next day indicating that her family is going for “power of attorney” because her memory and mental capacity are failing. I did not know that she had reached this point when I received her photo of the card and emailed my reply about us all being interconnected in response to the card.
These days, I am more conscious of this other truth in my experience of living. In that there is less of a need to remember. My contemplation and reflection has influenced my perception, increasing the awareness that we are not the separate entities that we have been conditioned to believe, as our conventional understanding see ourself and others to be. A perceived separation between mind and body perpetuated by our current world view could in fact be at the heart of much of our contemporary illness and other crisis.
All in the universe is changing but our current, dominant collective view often translates into a materially and mechanically focused perception that involves seeing ourselves and the world in a way that is fixed and or static, and more or less being isolated in that.
The reality of change is sometimes difficult for us to accept. There will always be the consequences of change that we have to cope with one way or another. But as humans we have been conditioned to believe that through effort we can change the inevitable. We have come to believe that we can keep things static and in this conditioned belief here is a denial of “what is”, We see only pieces of the puzzle and are busy in our effort to modify those pieces.
A more contemporary realization of science is that we are an inseparable part of this eternal cosmos that is ever-changing and vasty interconnected. Our interconnection as sentient human beings is much more than we perceive it to be. Our adaptive perceptual developments actually interfere with this more cosmic and comprehensive perception.
We are in fact more in flow with ourselves, others and the cosmos when we are in line with this more comprehensive way of being. It is not something that can occur through willful effort. It is only a piece of it, that can in fact perpetuate a piecemeal perception if we rely predominantly only on it. In doing so we do become separated in our awareness of deeper truth. We have to be willing to investigate and inquire into our habits and patterns if we desire to open to a more truthful way of perceiving our lives.