I share my experience because I have come to be aware that so many others have had a similar experience, many not having had the opportunity to understand the consequences of our conditioning on how we live our lives. For much of my life I have been unsure about how to express my experience. Looking back I learned not to trust what I experienced and so it ended up that I did not know how to allow all experience to be itself. I now realize that it was a part of being taught to use the mind to reflect an overlay of opinions and ideas about the experience. I just didn`t really get the connection between the direct experience and authentically expressing it. In entering into the world of earning money and finding a job and seeking out pleasurable experiences, there seemed to be no advantage to that. The two seemed to be so separate and isolated from each other. Ultimately how is it that we can find words that reflect the direct experience when the mind is covering it over in its habitual way of perceiving, creating and pursuing something else. They end up being more about the mind.