Letting Go of Thinking That I Know

I have come to see the limitation of conventional living and now see more merit in looking for a way of experiencing something deeper; that might influence a movement away from the inauthentic person that I have become. New insights endlessly arise in opening to that journey; one being that I have become dependent on a deluded narrative of self. That superficial creation has been a product of family, cultural and social prescriptions, norms and conventions. That perception of self has been itself an obstruction to a depth of seeing and living.

The essence of who I am, has been lingering; there,underneath those layers of what I have become; that has generally served to veil that essence. It’s not that I think that I am better than others in pursuing this pursuit of  truth, but more that I care immensely to discover what is real. Perhaps it is to uncover the un-truth of it all, realizing the insanity of the deluded ways that humanity has chosen to follow, that has become the most important motivation for me. It seems that I have always, subtly at times and not so subtly at others; been aware of the alienating consequences and effects of abandoning the truth of self.
Still; I seem to encounter in the engagement with the conventional world a tension and pressure to be more of that false self, rather than finding support in pursuing what is authentic. Our world seems to be ordered in particulars and individualistic fixation and indulgence on external ism´s; especially so in the west. This is greatly influenced and perpetuated by the media, technology, political and religious propaganda, science and entertainment. The ultimate consequence of this is that “we think that we know” or that there is some other expert that does.

In discovering what is authentic from my own direct experience of it; I first came to understand how to look in another direction from what I had earlier learned. In the re-orientation to seeing from within I realize that I don’t know what others claim to know and I trust more in my intuition that spurs me to  question convention and other common sense assertions and assumptions. These days I trust more than ever in not knowing. To remain in a world of uninspiring, fragmented external focus and locked in a stifling habitually conditioned pattern that perpetuates being lost in this way is not a way of evolving, from what I can understand.

I see too clearly in my search that what we have come to create our world to be one that perpetuates an alienation from our essence and to continue to live our life in this way; thinking that we can resolve our social and global dilemmas from this place of darkness is repeating more of the same. Continuing to trust that it will help to find my way out from the darkness with the same way of thinking that has enslaved me is not helpful. Change is required.

Letting go, in awareness, of the fixed notions about what I think that I am and what I think and believe that I know is required if I am to embrace change. This change seems to unfold from embracing the essence of what I am. As well it seems to be very relevant that I come to see and trust in a guidance that arises from this being in essence, if I hope not to be further be distracted by conventional pursuits. It is not an easy journey to come to accept that we are nothing of what we thought ourselves to be.

6 thoughts on “Letting Go of Thinking That I Know

  1. I think that, when it comes to social concepts, the sense of certainty in knowledge comes more from a fearful clinging to a need for the illusion of that certainty than it comes from realism or integrity. We spend too much time fighting for our own personal “isms” and not enough time sitting under a tree surrendering ourselves to insight about the deeper patterns which could unite us. If we do achieve a greater insight, though, the difficult question is how do we take it those who already think they know the truth.

  2. Absolutely, from what I see and we are encouraged to accept what we are told. i think that more often than not we never learn to explore or trust in the way you say. At one time I used to canvas for a politician and so often I would here the story that my parents voted this way and heir parents voted this way so I am going to vote this way. I have begun reading Throeau’s “Walden” and he begins by suggesting that people accept the concepts that have been handed to them and do not value chang, maybe because of the uncertainty that you write about. He talks about the farmer, who as he is ploughing his field, says to Thoreau that he doesnt believe in vegetarianism because
    we require meat for the development of bones, as he leads his grass chewing oxen.

    • Yes, there is a strong tendency for us, when we are afraid, to stick with what we know. Our desire is to be safe, but very often that objective puts us in a situation where we are less safe.

      I think there is something we can learn from this though, and that is that if we want people to be open to a new way, then we have to address ourselves to how we can give them a sense of reassurance. In a way, I think, that is our bigger need. I have great faith in the ability of the mind, if freed from fear and insecurity, to see the principles of life clearly and make good decisions.

      It is like this. A terrible monster is coming over the hill. We come up to a defenceless individual holding a lucky rabbit’s foot. We tell them about how terrible and dangerous the monster is. This makes them cling all the more tightly to their lucky rabbit’s foot. We tell them about how powerful the sword is. It can kill the monster at a single blow. But they don’t take the sword, because to do so would mean letting go of their lucky rabbit’s foot.

      If we began by assuring them that all would be well and that they did not need the lucky rabbit’s foot, perhaps we could persuade them to put it down temporarily. Then we could get them to take an interest in the sword and how useful it would be just in case they were threatened.

      We think that people don’t take action against a threat because they don’t understand how great it is. Often it is precisely the greatness of the threat which paralyses them.

      • It makes sense what you say but the one thing that I have doubts about is whether the sword is the answer. It has always been the response , most of the time with unsatisfactory results. All of the conquests by the imperial sword are blowing back on the conquerers.

      • I’m not literally advocating the sword (i.e. aggression). I was a bit wary about using that analogy, because it is so easily interpreted in that more literal way, but there is a long history of using the symbol of the sword to represent reason. The monster, after all, is not literally a monster which can be killed, but any problem which needs to be solved.

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