Being an artist;I see the greatest importance of creating from a place of being true to oneself but to do this one must be enabled to resist the intimidation of consensus, if we are to come to authentically know what is true of our self. We live in a world that, more than often, demands the surrender of what is real and fundamental of the self. Surrender we must, but ultimately the need to surrender for me implies a surrendering of all that takes us away from what is authentic and true. As a result of my socialization and development there is much to surrender, including that which is habitual and unseen of what has been assumed as self. At times, it has been necessary to eventually become aware of what has blocked deeper realization and often that involves experiencing the pain that is inseparable from that. To do that has involved adopting a meditative and contemplative way that has enabled embracing openness and a readiness to be with the whole of the experience, good and bad; in another way.