Human behaviour is affecting life on this planet. It is apparent to me that society is invested in a delusion, a part of which involves a selective narrowing of awareness and abandonment of a more holistic perception of self. In this modern vision of self, individuals seem to strive for identity, focusing on becoming something with a great deal of emphasis put on fitting in and coping. We cant seem to see or do anything about the destruction we are causing.
I question what becoming better-adapted cogs in a toxic industrial culture does for us and if at some level it helps us to ignore something urgent calling of ourself and the planet. Naturally when we ignore something of our being there is the chance of dysfunction. We must ask if it is a delusion that we have chosen in our use of conventional tactics and strategies, necessary for striving, becoming and fitting into society, that take us away from something more creative and real of ourself and the universe. I suspect that there is certain necessary basis of illusion that makes life bearable for most human beings these days.
Jiddu Krishnamurti said, “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” Contrary to convention I favour the idea that ‘”not fitting in” is not an indication of pathology or abnormality although it does increase the likelihood that we will feel marginalized and that is not an easy experience to navigate. However more authentic it is to be with our “aloneness” and “deeper realization” it can be very challenging to see these truths and to live in this place of deeper awareness. Most human beings have no chance of seeing through and understanding the delusions and the structures that form our conventional experience. The fear of being marginalized is powerful and many can not cope with the thought of being alone and because of that they seem to be unconsciously caught in a dance of striving to become something of perceived value and of coping with not ultimately being able to achieve that.
Over the years any efforts that I invested into attempting to solve the problem of myself in conventional ways always seemed to leave me with a subtle sense of selling out. It has taken some contemplation to illuminate that to go along with the conventional strategies contributed to individual and social dysfunction. The deeper truth did not always hold the promise that our delusional ideals did; only of destroying the illusions that make life tolerable. I question the notion that there are ultimates in the classical mystical, or even scientific, sense although for me there is something relevant to the active notion that the world is a living being to which we belong and that it is a part of our own self and that we are a part of its suffering wholeness. Until we go to the root of our image of separateness, there can be no healing of self or the world.