A Realighnment

I have no doubt that humankind entered into a Faustian like deal with early ancestors, who discovered the ability to differentiate and conceptualize and to arrange objects in their environment to better serve them. It changed our hopes and dreams and it promised the world in exchange for our minds. A shift occurred where we came to know and relate to our world primarily through our conditioned conceptual mind.

As there were no apparent options of escaping from that conditioned world that was fed to me, It was fortunate for me to discover, through great hardship and error, the folly of being trapped by this so called civilized modern way and of being the slave to a fragmented perception, mechanical analysis, dogmatic belief and judgement, all attributes reinforced and encouraged by conventional external influences.

It has required a rebellious diligence to enable a realization of what has been lost in that Faustian deal, and in so seeing allowing for a deeper contemplation of mind and world to emerge. Rather than being an experience that is about complacent resignation and withdrawal to a more primitive way, it has been more of a waking up and and expansion into an unseen and mysterious world.

Ultimately there is minimal opportunity for a direct experience or for authentic insight to arise with a conditioned mind. The shedding of the attachment to the veneer allows for an unfolding and arising from within, and as I welcome a further immersion within it allows for a more holistic awareness and influence on mind.

Opening My Eyes

What I have been raised to know has been conditioned by convention and tradition, by the minds of my parents and the collective thinking of culture and existing institutions. It directly affected how I came to perceive existence. Those patterns of knowing were influenced by a mechanistic, materialistic functioning and a concept of time that contributed to a rigid , limited ability to perceive certain things in the universe.

Emerging from that conditioning there is an opening to alternative ways of knowing and from that opportunity to realize the “relativity of knowing”. This is enabling in allowing things that have been hidden from perception to be seen. In this new seeing there is transformation which in turn effects experience and perceptions of life and living.

Everything is always changing. There is a death involved in letting go of an old way of identifying with self and the world however limited and delusional it may be. There is grief in that death when we see what we thought to be permanent evaporate or change into something unimagined and there is invigoration if we allow ourselves to flow with change and to move through to a place of rebirth that is inseparable from that death.

“The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand wrapped in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed.” – Albert Eistein

Into the Depths

What and how, I perceive is completely dependent on my state of consciousness. I am a doubter and find it difficult to believe that I can learn what I need to know of truth from another. If I have faith in anything it is that, through a commitment to focus my life in awareness to my direct experience and the intuition that arises from that I can come to know what I need to know of truth and authenticity. I am enabled in that to take steps to realize what has accumulated in my conditioning that clouds my seeing in my desire to dive more deeply into truth

There is always a gap in life. To constantly try to fill that gap we risk never learning anything helpful about ourselves or our existence. In choosing to enter into the gap with an open embracing of what we might discover there as truth is an ongoing revelation and can take us deeper into self knowing. As Heraclitus suggests “You could not discover the limits of the soul (psyche), even if you traveled every road to do so; such is the depth (bathun) of its meaning (logos).” James Hillman adds “Ever since Heraclitus brought soul and depth together in one formulation, the dimension of soul is depth (not breadth or height) and the dimension of our soul travel is downward.”

Evolution, Conscious of Itself

It is pretty obvious to me that everything in life is changing. It is a perception that this existence is an unfolding, that everything that exists is a part of and everything is interconnected in this unfolding. Even the notion of evolution is unfolding. It would be quite ironic to conceive of my understanding in a fixed way as “that” would be outside this notion that all is changing.

Our minds are also evolving. We see the world through conjectures that are creations of the mind. Our conjectures are replaced with new conjectures as the mind evolves. This conjecture that I am writing here is relative. So how can we grasp the totality of evolution with the limited and fragmented thinking mind. Ultimately its such a massive occurrence that cannot be fully captured or realized through words or definitions which are designed to capture pieces and parts as opposed to something so whole.

It might be better expressed that our understanding of evolution and “evolution” itself is something emerging. It is a very creative emergence beyond our ability to foresee. Our understanding might not be able to grasp at any level of sophistication what form existence will take or what forms “beings” that are part of our existence will manifest as. But that does not prevent humankind from attempting to directly influence evolution. Our use of technological developments are especially developed to intervene in this process. But in our effort to catch evolution in a fixed way we are caught in the continually evasive “phantom of becoming”. The greatest risk in this is; what is missed or disregarded in our partial and fragmented way of understanding and perceiving that inform our conceptualization and what destructiveness will be unleashed in our conceptualization and creations in doing so.