Caught in Convention

Caught up in our usual activities, reacting to the fearful propaganda that our extreme politicians and leaders dangle in front of us, having forgotten our true nature, we may seem to be elsewhere, but we are in fact never truly apart from it. This radical truth, of our “true nature,”is not something to merely believe in but “to live” and to fully embody and it may be that it is the collective response that leads us to challenge these leaders . But as individuals we must let go of habitual and regressive reactions that insulate individuals from knowing self and one another. Awareness and contemplation of fear and vulnerability are essential in waking us to this deeper truth but impulsive and habitual reacting from a place of fear leads us away from knowing deeper truths of ourselves.

Intimate Revelation

So these days I spend more of my time doing what I need to do to orient myself more deeply within, looking to open to something of essence, which is no easy task considering that I have, so early in life, been intensely trained to be closed to these things. This focus within has been fuelled, to a large degree by a desire for truth and the realization that my thinking about things, has never been what I thought it was.

A challenge has been to ultimately face what has been perceived to be unbearable, that my thinking has distracted me from, that has been diverted to the sub conscious. In bringing awareness to what I have so readily diverted from, avoided, ignored, and denied my direct experience I am better oriented to what us true if my experience. In learning to be more attentive to what is, I learn to be with what is unpleasant, understanding the relevance of attending to what is real, despite my habitual urges and emotions that are averse to that.

I discover wholeness in that opening and with that an expanded awareness and living of life that emanates from the heart in a shower of energy charging my life experience, feeling and emoting more than I have known. There is a more enduring joy in suddenly rediscovering a lost compassion for myself and for others who struggle with the same life search and attempt to move beyond cultural limitation. The realization and wonder of my humanity and my unique place in it is difficult to express. It is a rather divine revelation to encounter this intimate self and life that comes with an awareness that joy and suffering are not as opposite as I learned to believe they were and that the perception of separation that we have come to know in our dualistic world in general is a delusion.


The Cynics, satirists and “mystics” (circuit V-VIII types) have told us over and over that “reason is a whore,” i.e., that the semantic circuit is notoriously vulnerable to manipulation by the older, more primitive circuits. However much the Rationalist may resent this, it is always true in the short run —that is, to use one of the Rationalist’s favorite words, it is always pragmatically true. Whoever can scare people enough (produce bio-survival anxiety) can sell them quickly on any verbal map that seems to give them relief, i.e., cure the anxiety. By frightening people with Hell and then offering them Salvation, the most ignorant or crooked individuals can “sell” a whole system of thought that cannot bear two minutes of rational analysis. And any domesticated primate alpha male, however cruel or crooked, can rally the primate tribe behind him by howling that a rival alpha male is about to lead his gang in an attack on this habitat. These two mammalian reflexes are known, respectively, as Religion and Patriotism. They work for domesticated primates, as for the wild primates, because they are Evolutionary Relative Successes. Robert Anton Wilson from Prometheus Rising

It is my sense that many global politicians today combine religion with their nationalistic sentiments to promote a regressive world view. It seems to be a step backwards to times when world war was fuelled by this kind of thinking and related efforts at boundary making. Ultimately as a conscious species we are coming to realize however slowly that separating humans into categories of race and/or any other such category is in the end an arbitrary endeavour. Never the less there exists a global reaction from those who experience a sense of vulnerability in this opening to deeper truths and deviant individuals opportunistically address these emotions in impractical and regressive ways that do nothing but encourage greater fear, illusion and reactivity. Gord

How to Change Your Mind: The New Science of Psychedelics by Michael Pollan

There is so much authority that comes out of the existing primary mystical experience that it can be threatening to existing hierarchal structures. – Rolland Griffiths this book can be an opening. Iris read it and said that it has had more of an impact than any other book that she is read in a long time. A really excellent read. For someone who experimented with psychedelics in my teens I was too young to realize and take advantage of the benefits. This book explores and reflects better than any that I have read about the consciousness raising possibilities of psychedelics. While they don’t represent a magic fix they can be part of a door opening and new and more comprehensive and holistic perceiving, envisioning and creativity. Pollan explores this with great expertise. At this late age of Sixty five I have the urge to indulge in some shrooms. Its never too late.

The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead by Timothy Leary

I am just finishing up this book. As the title suggests Timothy Leary discusses the process of “ego death” suggesting a link between the experience of ego loss in the use of psychedelics and the process illustrated in the “Tibetan Book of The Dead”. He quotes the German Lama Govinda and his interpretations on numerous occasions. He discusses this process as it relates to an expanded or evolution of consciousness.